It was pretty difficult to find the subject matter to blog about today. I was worried about making a committment too big! Then I slapped myself in the face. Hard. (Metaphorically speaking ‘course.)

I overcame that hurdle. Check out the blog here: Homeless Dudes.

About 2 pm I received a text that pretty much demanded I face a personal demon. I didn’t want to. Geez! My mind was working overtime on all the ways I could avoid confronting this!  It’s so funny recognizing what’s going on inside myself and at the same time the innner monologue says:

“You little bitch, just deal with it. You need to get this done. It’s not going to go away.”

And then the other little person inside my vortex of an imagination is like,

“You should put all your energy towards creating your dream. Don’t deal with this now. It’ll bring you down.”

LMAO! Are you kidding me?? I’m at war with myself.

Then I imagined what the bad ass version of myself would do. There she is.

“Knock this little hill out so the road will be clear for your journey.”

Is it crazy that just by imagining yourself as someone else, your brain gives you a different answer? Have you guys ever experienced this?

I was all over the place this afternoon. Yet after the bad ass version of myself gave me the answer, it was all business. It was a little rocky but it all seemed to get accomplished. Yeah – Bring it. I’m starting to get the hang of the battle.

This evening I put my big girl panties on and decided to handle my business head on. Not angry. Just peaceful and lovely. It wasn’t exactly easy. But after 2 hours, I knew that I had made the right decision and I received several benefits:

1) The knowledge that there wasn’t really anything to be afraid of.

2) For the first time I was myself. Open and vulnerable. Hey, guess what? I’m not so bad!

3) I have a possible connection at the US Patent and Trademark office! Only 1 degre of separation. It’s not in the area I’m working in, but still. How F’in cool! (if you don’t know what I’m talking about then you need to read the Richard Branson post!)

4) I’m a little raw but a HUGE weight is off my shoulders.

Pushing through obstacles is soon becoming a favorite adventure.

So I’ve accomplished my goals for today. Tommorrow wil be another story. A 5 hour drive and a schedule to keep me busy as soon as I arrive. No excuses. I’m in control of my committments and decisions and honey this train is movin’.

sherryayn

–future professional adventurer

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